That's Life

A song given by him as one of my belated birthday gift this year. Things hasn’t been easy for us lately and maybe I did make a mistake by going too fast. I guess I have been too caught up with my own desires that I had forgotten about his feelings. Things got way out of hand now and if I were to still be with him, it will not be the same. He won’t be the same as before. The relationship will be different. I have been suggesting/saying lets end it but the truth is I don’t want that. The time he went to Korea for work for 2 weeks, it was hard. 2 weeks felt like months. The feeling of being away with him is not nice and it feels like part of you are gone. The constant worrying about him was there and the feeling of calling him or msging asking how he is & hows the training during the day was hard. That was the past and he is now back and its my fault for having this argument. I do want to go travelling and talk to my friends and catch up with them before settling down but there is no such thing as friends of opposite gender & for travelling wise not too sure if I can do that. Now decision have to make. Its a tough choice. I have to admit if we were to go separate ways, I don’t think I will be with someone like him. He is the type where every girls dream of being with. All girls want a guy who thinks about the future, stable, think how to improve the relationship, kind and a lot more. Guys like him is hard to find. I guess I am the stupid and unappreciative one. A lot of time I just wished things didn’t do the same things again and again. I never learnt my lesson. I guess if leaving him will make his life better and happier, then I will make my move.